February 2012
462 posts
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nobody
will ever wants
to be with me
I watched a film this morning
It was about the holocaust There was one man who was being taken to the camps and he took out his wedding ring from his pocket and said to his friend “Nobody is going to decide when I die, except me” He screwed the diamond from the top and drank the poison from inside I want one
TAKE ME BACK TO THE START
I fucking beg you
can’t deal with this, wish I could sleep naturally then would have maybe went to sleep 5 hours like normal people and not found out shit that destroys who I’ve been for the last while
EVERYTHING I EVER BELIEVED IN IS FUCKING BULLSHIT
fuck
fuck fuck fuck fuck
discovered something tonight
last two years have come flooding back to me what the fuck have I done how could I have done this
why did I think that I’m so fucking stupid
fuck.
talk about fucking realisation
I am a fucking idiot this is it I fucking need to deal with this once for all and move on I can’t believe this
what a fucking waste of all these months...
vi0lentdream:
I really wish my friends and parents knew what it was like to have bi polar disorder. I don’t choose to be manic or depressed so stop bitching at me if I could control it I would. I sorry im so fucked.
Now someone new is trying to tell me they love me
Will I actually let someone in this time? Probably not
cream-and-honey asked: i love your blog, and what are songs number 2 and 3 on you playlist? they are beautiful! kthnks :)